I was feeling shy ,which was a trait that i neither inherited nor it was ever a part of me .I felt like i am opening myself to a an unknown face of people which was always discouraging and that it would bring filthy comments.But deep within the only thing that kept me and everyone who goes blank on such occasions is the self criticism and scolding that someone or something inside us keep on lashing at us from time to time. This bastard which resides under every one of us is the collective form of our past experiences and nuances that we observe in one self. It is born out of our futile attempts to take corrective measures again our own shortcomings which as time passes by gets accumulated on the gutter cap of our memory and form a big ,strong and foul smelling mass of thoughts whose effect is foreseen on us .It is this unchecked blockage which keeps us back from just going for things which we know we can do.These thoughts of ours are like shackles and chains which contain us like slaves in the cells of our shell(mind).Sometimes the burden of this shit becomes so huge that the person gets dragged and loses his spark in life.He loses all his interest and makes a total geek of himself .
Ten minutes past away and i had started feeling the jitters as if i was an artist who has to perform in front of a packed audience,such was the mere pressure that my fingers kept away from the keyboard and knocking of the keys felt agonizing .But luckily though i gathered all and thought all i was doing was putting down some HAZARDOUS thoughts on my blog sitting in the comfort of my room .What harm could it would have done to me? ,on the contrary it helped me flush down the negativity that had been playing its game for quite some time now.
So people just let go loose of yourself and don"t no longer be threatened by your own self.
